Now, to think up a topic worth posting about. How about almost being done university?
I've been a mite sentimental the last couple of days simply because when things are coming to an end, thats what I do. Emma (of the tall Nanaimo variety and not the short sister variety) and I were chatting yesterday about how we had felt before graduation from highschool, her sentiment "I couldn't wait to be out" and my recollection "I remember throwing the closest thing to a 3 year old's tantrum"
Yikes
I just don't know how comfortable I am with change when things are good. I like it here. I really like my life. I have great roomates; I live with my best friends.
I have a fun extended group of friends, so I'm never bored, I'm never lonely. I have a good schedule and sometimes I even love my classes. It's a good lifestyle. At the same time, I know I want to do so many things and that I don't want to stay here any longer. I want to (cliche) see the world. I want to have some adventures and check out things that I've been googling for the past years. I want to do this all now. I also kind of want to do something else. I'm done with school for now. I've lived the University life. I've eaten off of the ripped up boxes that used to hold Betty Crocker instant chocolate cake mix
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..."Hey, don't throw out that plate!" - Colin ...
and consumed nothing but kraft dinner, strong coffee and $9 bottles of wine on any given day.
Well, maybe I don't have to be torn. I guess I could just do the smart thing and really appreciate what I have right now and know that I'll always have Halifax. I'll just have to pull a Jack Johnson out of the ol' itunes library whenever I start to feel down.
"Every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end"
Dal was something I was apprehensive about. I don't know that I was fully stoked about moving across the country, but I did, and now I feel like this, and so it goes... I will leave here, and I will feel like this again (apprehensive about moving on from something good) in a different situation. Just make the best of what we have now.
Though if I could ask a favour of karma; next time, throw me a couple of the important people in my life...
Oh, and if I might be so forward; could you put me somewhere with a beach?
1 comment:
Bryna,
I like it here too, and have the same apprehension in a lot of ways about moving away. I don't know how I was so lucky to find such great friends, and how to deal with the inevitable change. I like change, but have never been such a situation where my life is so good as it is now.
It's time to put your dreams on the line, go with some instincts and always know you'll have friends and family that will be there in a moment to bail you out if you need it (which I can't see ever really being a problem).
If you don't you'll regret it "maybe not today. Maybe not tomorrow, but soon and for the rest of your life.
We'll always have Paris."
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